So I dreamed about you last night,
After writing about you yesterday.
And if only I could dream like that every night,
Then I'd happily write about you every day.
Even now I can remember that kiss of yours,
The way you hold me between your hands,
Pampering softness of your lips,
The lustful moments you took my breath away.

Every time you hold me, even in a small way,
It becomes all I want to feel,
Everything I want to last,
And the only thing in this world I don't want to end.

Sometimes I wonder if you could feel it too..
The way I try to wrap you in my arms,
The way I'm torn between the feelings of wanting more,
And the fear of losing myself in your warmth.

It's like the warmth in your voice when you speak to me,
The warmth in your eyes when you see me smile.
It's like a sense of love I crave to no end,
And something that always makes me hungry for more

The worst thing about lying is not
the fact that you are lying to others,
but that you are lying to yourself.

She is everything to me,
The unrequited dream,
The song that no one sings,
The unattainable.
She's a myth that I have to believe in,
All I need to make it real is one more reason.

I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.

But I won't let this build up inside of me.

Put down the pen,
you'll never find the words to tell him what you feel.

Je kan niemand vertrouwen voor de volle 100 procent,
Niemand hoeft dus te weten wie je volledig bent.
Bouw op jezelf, want anderen laten je vallen.
Vetrouw op jezelf, want anderen stellen je teleur.
Bespaar jezelf de pijn, met de herinneringen die je verscheurt.
Ups & downs zijn normaal, maar blijf niet down en move on.
Kruip weer omhoog, ook al dacht niemand dat je 't kon.
Hou je karakter onschendbaar
Want iemand zijn die je niet bent, is t niet waard.
bewijs jezelf, wees trots op jezelf & blijf jezelf.

i asked her if she still loves him
She said ; no, i don't.
But by the look in her eyes,
you could see that she stil loves him
after all this time.--

be strong now,
because things will get beter
it might be stormy now
but it can't rain forever.

achter deze lachende ogen brandt een traan van pijn.

Everything is possible!

Never say never...

All my life
I've been searching for you
How did I survive
In this world before you
Cause I don't wanna live another day without you now

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do.

I'm going to love you with my life

Losing Sight
my heart told my head to forget the past,
but my head told my heart, it wouldn't last.

If you write to please everyone
You lose sight of who truly matters
Yourself
You don't write to please others
You write to please yourself
It's a safe-haven
Where no one can judge you
You can let all your thoughts flow into words
And hope that you can get it all out in time
There's never enough time for it all though
Which is why some people never stop writing
They never stop thinking
And so they never stop feeling
Sometimes this can be good
But sometimes it's torture
You want to stop feeling
But it's not possible
Life has been too traumatizing
And you hate it
For once in your life,
You want to feel something besides pain
But you can't
You don't know how
And so you write
You write beautifully
And people love it
But it means nothing
You're still in pain
You're still being tortured
And there's nothing you can do to help it
No matter what you try
It doesn't work
Even though you think it will
It doesn't
Unless for a moment
But then the pain comes back
And the torture starts once more
And so the writing continues
On an endless cycle
Destined to repeat for eternity

How did I let it get this bad?
I'm so ashamed
I should've seen it coming,
That you were going to hurt me this badly
That it's impossible for me to be loved,
Especially by you.
I can't even see your name and not cry
So what will this year bring?
Pain,
Longing,
But I had regained some hope near the end of last year,
Will you give me that again?
Or will you stay silent,
Making me go back into the darkness...
I can only hope that you'll help me,
Or at least,
Try to
I know you can save me,
But I know you won't
You're the one that hurt me
And what am I supposed to do,
When the one who hurt me...
Is the only one that can save me?

don't forget,
But I do forgive
So I'll forgive you
Forgive you for not talking to me,
Forgive you for not texting me,
Even forgive you for the pain you caused me
But I won't forget
I won't forget that you ignored my pleas of help
I won't forget that you left me to fend for myself,
Even when I was beaten and bruised,
Paralyzed on the floor
I won't forget that you dragged me along at your will,
Dropping me when you felt like it
I won't forget that you stole my heart from its protective cage,
And shattered it into a million pieces once more
So remember,
I may seem fine on the outside,
But inside I'm dying
And it's all your fault

How are you supposed to live,
When you have nothing to live for?
Yes,
There are friends
But how can you be sure that they're even real?
Even if you've had them your entire life
After a while,
Everything becomes questionable
You don't know who you can trust
Who you can truly call your friend,
And who's just using you for their own game
I've been used
I'm still being used
I'm trying to find something to live for,
But there's an enormous rain cloud hovering over my entire life
It's clouding my judgment
It's making me turn from those who love me most
But how do I escape?
I can't
Not until I find a savior
Who will be ready to catch me when I fall
Maybe then the sun will come back to me

"How to disappear completely?"

Good evening said the sun
to all that she saw,
"Don't worry I'll see you soon,
I'll cast long dark shadows
once more like the law"
Goodnight said the sun to the moon.

Goodnight said the moon
to the stars in the sky
and the little boy down the street.
Goodnight to the roses
and the catcher in the rye
and the strangers I have yet to meet.

Goodnight said the owl
to the eggs in her nest
and the girl who is always right.
Goodnight to the trees
and the answers that are guessed
and the teens who stay up all night.

Goodnight said the mom
to her son in his room
and the girl that she used to be.
Goodnight to her love
and the sense of doom
and the funny things that she sees.

Goodnight said the boy
to the monster in his bed
and the unknown thought of love.
Goodnight to his shadow
and the things that were said
and the moon high up above.

How deep will I have to fall before I find the will again
It's always repeating
The earth turns around and around
'Till I die

And it's killin' me when you're away, I wouldn't leave and I wouldn't stay.
I'm so confused,So hard to choose.
Between the place I'm around the pain.
And I know it's wrong, and I know it's right.
Even if I try to win the fight, my heart would overwhelm my mind.
And I'm not strong enough to stay away

This love,
this love is gonna be the end of me

And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what
you'll never see me cry

Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon

P.S. I'm still not over you

Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life
Its you that I live for, and for you I die
So I'll Lay here with you 'til the final goodbye

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass,
it is about learning to dance in the rain."

Lost in her feelings.

Why is it so hard
To find someone
Who cares about you
When it's easy enough to find
Someone who looks down on you?
Why is it so hard to find
Someone who can keep it
Together when you've come undone
Why is it so hard
To find someone
Who cares about you?

They say you have to listen to your heart,
but in my case that might be a bad idea :(

Je bent pas mooi
als je van het leven geniet

“Every once in a while people step up, they rise above themselves, sometimes they surprise you. Sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you find hope, in the words of children and the bars of a song, and in the eyes of someone you love, and if your lucky, an if your the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back!”

“Life is just a long journey that is made up a million little road trips”

You know that feeling you get on a Sunday? When you just have the whole day to yourself, and it's been great, but then you remember you have to go to school the next day, and it ruins the whole rest of the night. I have to go home tomorrow, and I just have that feeling. It's like Sunday night”

I gave you my heart and that's all I can give you, and if that's not enough, then I'm not enough.

“the SOONER you realize it's never going to go back
to the way it wasthe sooner you will move on."

"Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us? Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us that we now send our children into the world like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return, but knowing that some would be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows. Swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?"

“Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle. The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours.”

“Change comes like a little wind that ruffles the curtains at dawn, and it comes like a stealthy perfume of wildflowers hidden in the grass”

“Every song has a CODA, a final movement. Whether it fades out or crashes away. Every song ends. Is that any reason not to enjoy the music? The truth is, there is nothing to be afraid of. It's just life”

“Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.”

“Trust is a lie.”
- one tree hill

"Nobody has all the answers, but we do have all our whys"
"Relax, destiny has a way of finding you"

"Here's my philosophy on dating: It's important to have somebody that can make you laugh, somebody you can trust, and somebody that you know turns you on...and it's really, really important to make sure that these three people don't know each other."

To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing it's best, night and day, to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle, which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting.

just talk to me. Just tell me how you feel. I know it's scary and I know you had a hard time with her. But just tell me if you can show me your heart. Because if you do, I'll guard it with my life. Just say okay.

I thought I knew you. But I guess it's easier to see what we want than to look for the truth. You think you know me but you don't. And that means you don't know what I can do. You see me as someone popular and has all the answers but that's not true. I may not always know what I'm doing but I'll try to make things better. And when I make a mistake, because face it, we all do, I promise I'll ask for your help. I can't do this alone, but if you'll take a chance on me, we can do great things together. I promise if you believe in me, I'll find the courage to reach for your every dream.

There are 82 letters in here, and they're all addressed to you. I wrote them all this summer. One a day, but I never sent them 'cause I was afraid....I was afraid of getting my heart broken again, like before. 'Cause you hurt me so bad, and I was afraid to be vulnerable. And I was afraid of you and the way that you make me feel. And I know that doesn't matter now after what I did, but I just thought that you should know. This was how I spent my summer, wanting you... I was just too scared to admit it.

Most of our lives are a series of images, they pass us by like towns on a highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens and we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back

You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it.

There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up

There's no shame in being afraid. Hell, we're all afraid. What you gotta do is figure out what you're afraid of, because when you put a face on it you can beat it. Better yet, you can use it. Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams I had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say I'm a failure.

What's my problem? My problem's on the other side of that wall. And in 5 minutes, if I'm not perfect, they're going to eat me alive. That's my problem.

Someone once said: it's the good girls who keep diaries. The bad girls never have the time. Me... I just wanna live a life I'm gonna remember. Even if I don't write it down