zondag 23 december 2012
What I miss most about you is not the cute moments that we had. The flowers at my door, the proclamations of love. No, what I miss is those everyday moments. Me tucking my feet under your leg when they were cold, the quiet kisses we shared behind the lockers, and holding hands under the table. Yeah, thats what I miss.
To let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or to ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't winning, isn't losing. It's not about pride. It's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. It's not giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss, and it's not defeat. To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome them and move on. Letting go is having the courage to accept, the strength to keep moving. Because letting go is growing up.
I need someone to prove to me that I'm worth it, really worth it to them. Maybe all I need is a person who can show me that everyone is not the same. Honestly, I thought you were that person but I was wrong. Is it too much to ask for someone to take a risk on me, to fight for me, to actually care enough to not let something go; the way I did for you? You never even thanked me. I acted the way I did because I cared. I didn't realize it then, but I do now. I don't do that for just anyone. So, call me crazy, but today.. today i realized that I can't keep waiting for you. I'm moving on, I can't stay in one place waiting. I can't be around you anymore. I'm not over it, I don't get over things fast, I never have, no matter how much I try and convince myself. I'll see you around sometime. I keep thinking maybe somehow, something will click and everything will go back to the way it was in the beginning. Maybe we could go back to that, but too much has been said and done. So, maybe you'll get one more chance from me, maybe you won't.
vrijdag 21 december 2012
donderdag 20 december 2012
maandag 17 december 2012
Here I go out to sea again
The sunshine fills my hair
And dreams hang in the air
Gulls in the sky and in my blue eyes
You know it feels unfair
There's magic everywhere
Look at me standing
Here on my own again
Up straight in the sunshine
No need to run and hide
It's a wonderful, wonderful life
No need to laugh and cry
It's a wonderful, wonderful life
The sun's in your eyes
The heat is in your hair
They seem to hate you
Because you're there
And I need a friend, oh I need a friend
To make me happy
Not stand there on my own
Look at me standing
Here on my own again
Up straight in the sunshine
No need to run and hide
It's a wonderful, wonderful life
No need to laugh and cry
It's a wonderful, wonderful life
I need a friend, oh I need a friend
To make me happy, not so alone
Look at me here, here on my own again
Up straight in the sunshine
The sunshine fills my hair
And dreams hang in the air
Gulls in the sky and in my blue eyes
You know it feels unfair
There's magic everywhere
Look at me standing
Here on my own again
Up straight in the sunshine
No need to run and hide
It's a wonderful, wonderful life
No need to laugh and cry
It's a wonderful, wonderful life
The sun's in your eyes
The heat is in your hair
They seem to hate you
Because you're there
And I need a friend, oh I need a friend
To make me happy
Not stand there on my own
Look at me standing
Here on my own again
Up straight in the sunshine
No need to run and hide
It's a wonderful, wonderful life
No need to laugh and cry
It's a wonderful, wonderful life
I need a friend, oh I need a friend
To make me happy, not so alone
Look at me here, here on my own again
Up straight in the sunshine
zaterdag 15 december 2012
You were here with me and everything was perfect. You held me close and I felt safe, like none of the bad in life could hurt me. Your arms fit around me perfectly and my heart jumped everytime you kissed me. We layed there and everything else seemed unimportant as I looked into your eyes and you looked back into mine. You stroked my cheek and smiled kissing me softly before attacking my neck with kisses until I laughed. You told me I was your favorite and I said you were mine too, I meant that.
I wonder, will it ever be the same as it once was. Will I ever look at myself and be okay with what I see? Because I am tired of it, tired of looking in the mirror and seeing nothing but imperfections. Why do I want to be perfect anyways? I know nothing good comes from perfection and with those around me it is their imprefections that make them beautiful. I think I'm still scared, scared that who I am isn't enough.
You know what the best feeling in the world is? Having a best friend, that one person who loves you &never judges you no matter what you matter how badly you fuck up. Someone who you have endless conversations with and can communicate by just using your eyes. That one person who just walks in your house, opens the fridge and grabs whatever they want out. Lastly it’s that person who knows so much about you that they could ruin your life in a second. But you trust them with your life and you know that they will never ever do that no matter what.
Well, I know it's over but I still have feelings. I still get a prickly sensation that runs up my spine when I see you. You just try not to look at me, you try not to see the pain that is written all over my face. Instead, you laugh and have a good time. I don't know how, I can't read your face. I don't know what you're feeling and honestly that bothers me more than anything, but I keep going and for some reason you won't let me fall out of love with you. It scares me because I don't want to be in love with you, but I guess I am. I am very much so in love with you. One of those that you can't fall out of love. It's pretty lame, I know. I just want to know what you do behind my back, when I don't see you. You're probably with her, you forgot about me already - but I guess that okay, I'm better off without you.
Stupid me for thinking you were different, but what was I thinking, no one ever is. It was just something about you that made me have hope that you wouldn't leave me, maybe it's the fact that we talked about people, the people we hated for leaving our lives. But look at you now, making me hate you more and more every day. You're just like every other one of them, walking away like I never meant anything to you. And maybe it's because you're too weak but I know what you've been through, you're probably the strongest person I know. Maybe it's because you thought you didn't need me anymore, but now you're falling apart. Face it, we both know you do. Maybe it's because you thought I didn't care, but remember I gave a fuck when no one else did, it's clear I cared too much. Or maybe it's because I don't know why, seeing how I wouldn't even know if you were alive anymore, because you've decided to leave me, leave me here miserable and trying to figure out why I hate the person I used to love the most. Well wherever you are, whatever you're doing, I just hope you're alright and living the life you were suppose to live with me.
donderdag 13 december 2012
Fear
And panic in the air
I want to be free,
From desolation and despair
And I feel
Like everything I saw
Is being swept away
When I refuse to let you go
I can't get it right
Get it right
Since I met you
Loneliness be over
When will loneliness be over?
Life
Will flash before my eyes
So scattered and lost
I want to touch the other side
And no one
Thinks they are to blame
Why can't we see
That when we bleed we bleed the same?
-Musee
And panic in the air
I want to be free,
From desolation and despair
And I feel
Like everything I saw
Is being swept away
When I refuse to let you go
I can't get it right
Get it right
Since I met you
Loneliness be over
When will loneliness be over?
Life
Will flash before my eyes
So scattered and lost
I want to touch the other side
And no one
Thinks they are to blame
Why can't we see
That when we bleed we bleed the same?
-Musee
zondag 9 december 2012
This is how life works: you spend forever acting like you don’t care that you’re alone and then someone comes along and fills the little void you’ve been neglecting for so long. Things are great and you think ‘wow, I’m happy for once’. Then, as soon as you get used to having them around, they leave. You’re alone again. Even more so than before, you tell yourself that you’ll never meet someone that’s going to take their place. But you will, and they do, and then the process repeats itself, over and over and over and over again.
No relationship is perfect, ever. There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater... The love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. And that's the key. It's like a big pie chart, and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece. Love can make up for a lot
donderdag 6 december 2012
I'm the type of girl to let you walk away. I'm not going to fight for you, or tell you all the reasons you should stay. I won't cry; I'm just going to pick myself back up, wipe my scraped knees from where I fell, and skip through life again. Sure, I'd love for you to stay, but I will do just fine without you.
It's just right now, when you're really gone, and I feel my eyes filled with tears, that I know it's not true
It's just right now, when you're really gone, and I feel my eyes filled with tears, that I know it's not true
zondag 2 december 2012
vrijdag 16 november 2012
woensdag 14 november 2012
dinsdag 13 november 2012
Way to go. You've got this spell on me that I just can't seem to break. I'm so strong, and in an instant, you could break me down. I realize I've made some mistakes in the past, and when you're up to your old tricks I'm tempted to make them again. Yet, coming back to you seems to be my favorite habit, and like they say, old habits die hard.
zaterdag 10 november 2012
You're the only person that ever made me feel anything, really feel, even if it wasn't always the best of feelings. You're the only one who could make me smile or tear me down in three seconds flat. You're the only person that can drive me crazy, in both good and bad ways. You're the only person that ever made me feel like I didn't have to try so hard
donderdag 8 november 2012
zaterdag 3 november 2012
When darkness falls
And surrounds you
When you fall down
When you're scared
And you're lost
Be brave
I'm coming to hold you now
When all your strength has gone
And you feel wrong
Like your life has slipped away
Follow me
You can follow me
And I will not desert you now
When your fire's died out
No one's there
They have left you for dead
woensdag 31 oktober 2012
dinsdag 30 oktober 2012
maandag 29 oktober 2012
zondag 28 oktober 2012
vrijdag 26 oktober 2012
zondag 21 oktober 2012
maandag 15 oktober 2012
Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles, and less than perfect conditions. So what? Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self confident, and more and more successful.
I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a
thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or
something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I
get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop
spinning
zaterdag 13 oktober 2012
Sometimes you have to run, so you can see who will run after you.
Sometimes you have to talk quieter, just to see who is listening.
Sometimes you have to step up in a fight, to see who is standing by your side.
Sometimes you have to make a wrong decision, to see who is there to fix it.
Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love, just to see if they love you enough to come back.
Sometimes you have to talk quieter, just to see who is listening.
Sometimes you have to step up in a fight, to see who is standing by your side.
Sometimes you have to make a wrong decision, to see who is there to fix it.
Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love, just to see if they love you enough to come back.
dinsdag 9 oktober 2012
You don't have to get a job that makes others feel comfortable about what they perceive as your success. You don't have to explain what you plan to do with your life. You don't have to justify your education by demonstrating it's financial rewards. You don't have to maintain an impeccable credit score. Anyone who expects you to do any of those things has no sense of history or economics or science or the arts. You have to pay your own electric bill. You have to be kind. You have to give it all you've got. You have to find people who love you truly and love them back with the same truth. That's all.
woensdag 3 oktober 2012
woensdag 26 september 2012
woensdag 5 september 2012
It's like a bolt of lightening hits me in my chest, right out of the blue, every time I see you. Top of the world I'm standing, rocking at my best, then I look like a fool, every time I see you. You're like a wreck out on the highway - I can't look away, and I can't pass through. You're like an early Monday morning - bringing me down, messing with my mood. I'd love to say I could hold myself together, but I can't help but come unglued, every time I see you
zondag 2 september 2012
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