donderdag 31 januari 2013

It's funny... how easily you walked into my life was just how easily you walked out of my life. Thanks a whole lot.
The best revenge is just moving on and getting over it. Don't give someone the satisfaction of watching you suffer.
Sometimes in life, you find a special friend; someone who changes your life just by being a part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door, just waiting for you to open it.
If I could go back and do it all over again, I would.
Sometimes, it's not only the bad memories that's making you sad, but also the best ones which you know won't happen a second time.
It doesn't matter where you go in life, what you do, or how much you have. It's simply who you have beside you... I'm so glad you're there.
If you're gonna fall in love with me, it's only fair that you know what you're falling in love with. You're falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone else thinks of me. You're falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You're falling in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I'm a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me. But, you're also falling in love with the way my eyes smile when I'm with you, the way I text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You're falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing is that you're falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it's impossible.
It's funny how hello is always accompanied with goodbye. It's funny how good memories can start to make you cry. It's funny how forever never seems to really last. It's funny how much you'd lose if you forgot about your past. It's funny how "friends" can just leave you when you're down. It's funny how when you need someone they're never around. It's funny how people change and think they're so much better. It's funny how many lies can be packed in one love letter. It's funny how people forgive, even though they can't forget. It's funny how one night can contain so much regret. It's funny how ironic life turns out to be, but the funniest part of all, is that none of that's funny to me.
Sometimes we get sad about things and we don't like to tell other people that we're sad about them. We like to keep it a secret. 
I should have known that one day, all you said would turn out to mean nothing anymore.
The feeling of being sick, but you're not really sick. You're just sad, upset, unhappy. You just feel like laying in bed all day.
I'm not upset that you lied to me, 
I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you
Sometimes, you just gotta move on

woensdag 30 januari 2013

I don't want to forget you
not ever 
but sometimes I get scared 
We are like trees
Supposed to grow old together
Instead one is ill and damaged
The other is strong, independent, and fighting for sun 

While the healthy one survives
The other is overshadowed
The dirt is drying out
Both cannot live 

Natural selection is taking its course
Showing the forest who is in control 
Allowing the strong to go on
The weak to die out

zondag 27 januari 2013

Every day is a battle I faceStrange life I live, but it's what you've decidedI give it all into your handsDo what you will with meAnd I'll, I'll smile when you speakRemember those times I was hoping for something?And shaking my head from all that I have doneBut you never left me
Ooooh la love, I've fallen in loveand it's better this time than ever beforeOoooh la love, I've fallen in loveand it's better this time than I've ever known


Foster the people - I would do anything for you

dinsdag 22 januari 2013

maandag 21 januari 2013

Honestly, I don't need someone that sees the good in me. I need someone that sees the bad && still wants me
Sometimes, dreams are the only thing that keeps us alive.

"Smile beautifully. Smile big. Smile confidently. That way everyone thinks you’ve
got all kinds of secret things going on.That keeps them wanting more.
And when they want more, you’re automatically interesting."

“You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation;
trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've,
would've happened... or you can just leave the pieces on the floor
&& move the fuck on.” 
Not all of us can do great things. But we can do small things with great love.
Smile. Why? 
Because it makes you attractive; It changes your mood. It relieves stress. And it helps you stay positive. 
Life is too short to play games. 
If you love someone and want to be with them, then go get them. 
Deal with the mess later. You don’t know what tomorrow will bring




You don't know about my past and I don't have a future figured out
And maybe this is going too fast
And maybe it's not meant to last

I can't forget the times we've shared together.
The sadness and the happiness, the failure and success,
the simple hugs and those tender kisses.
I don't know when it will going to happen again, it seems like a part of me is gone.
I miss all of that, I miss you, I miss us.

And the tears come streaming down your face.
When you lose something you can't replace.
When you love someone but it goes to waste.
Could it be worse?
On the first page of our story, the future seemed so bright.

Sometimes I wish I had never met you.
Because then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there. 

Late at night, when all the world is sleeping.
I stay up and think of you,
and I wish on a star that, somewhere,
you are thinking of me, too.

Life is unfair. You put someone first who puts you second.
You give 110% to someone in a relationship when they only give 40%.
You're there for your best friend at 3 a.m. when they need it the most, and the next day
they don't pick up their phone. You give something your all and sometimes get little to nothing back.
You care so much about someone who doesn't care enough about you to say hi once in a while.
You give someone your time, and they give you "Sorry, I'm busy".
It seems like you're giving everyone everything, and they're just walking away with it. 

Never wonder what you mean to me because there's never been any doubt.
You're the sunshine of my world,
the rain I'd die without,
you're the every beat of my heart. 
I wish I could change your mind and make you stay.
Together forever, never apart.  Maybe in distance, but never in heart. 
"I can't make you love me, if you don't. 
You can't make your heart feel something it won't."
'If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn't have hurt me like I ain't shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly'

vrijdag 18 januari 2013

Stephanie durft, owei :-p
Surround yourself with people who are only going to lift you higher.
Life is really simple. But we insist to make it complicated


I'm fine,
just not happy

zaterdag 12 januari 2013

I'm fine, thanks for not asking
I don’t get how someone can erase you from their memory. How someone can just delete your existence. How someone can walk away like you meant nothing. It doesn’t make sense to me.

vrijdag 11 januari 2013

I'm mad at myself, not you. I'm mad for always being nice. I'm mad for apologizing for things I didn't do. I'm mad for getting attached. I'm mad for thinking about you. But most of all, I'm mad for not hating you when I should

We need to talk. We really need to talk. But it won’t be easy. I’m planning the whole story. The whole scenario, everything I want to say is clearly in my head. And you’ll listen. I know you will, because that’s who you are. Always friendly and kind, not wanting to hurt me. And I’ll tell you that it doesn’t work. That even with you being kind, it hurts like hell. That I’m not stupid. That I can see the look in your eyes, every time you talk to me. The look that tells me you’re only talking to me because  you think not talking to me at all would tear me down. You don’t want to be my friend, but you don’t want to be the reason I’m sad either. Well, let me tell you, it hurts even more, seeing that look in your eyes, than it would if you would just completely ignore me. Because now, every time we talk, I always remember how we used to be. How we used to laugh and cry and be crazy together. How we used to call, just to hear each other’s voice. How we’re not anymore. I can’t let it go, because you’re still acting nice and every time, it gives me a little hope. Hope that disappears just as quickly as it came.  So, after I told you everything that’s on my mind, I’ll tell you that I want you to make a decision. Or even better, I’ll make the decision for you. I won’t talk to you anymore, so you won’t have to answer. I’ll ignore you, act like you’re a complete stranger, when I walk in to you. That I will not be in your life anymore, so that it will be easier for you. You won’t have to pretend anymore. Starting right then. 
But even now I repeated the whole scenario a thousand times, I know it still won’t be any easier. Because how the hell do you look at someone you love and tell yourself it’s time to walk away?


donderdag 10 januari 2013


When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were things like astronauts, presidents, or in my case, a princess. When we were ten, they asked again. We answered rockstar, cowboy, or in my case, a golden medalist. But now that we’ve grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how about this: who the hell knows? This isn’t the time to make hard and fast decisions, this is a time to make mistakes. To take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere. To fall in love. A lot. To major in philosophy, because there’s no way to make a career out of that. To change your mind, and change it again, because nothing’s permanent. So, make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask us what we want to be, we won’t have to guess… We’ll know.

woensdag 2 januari 2013

I will always wonder , 
Why I will never have . 
The life I wanted
tell me now where was my fault, 
in loving you with my whole heart?
Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember