Bliss!

I just don't care about you anymore

Was jij dan alles en ik niets ?

To be hurt,
to feel lost,
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked, when you're down,
To feel like you've been pushed around,
To be on the edge of breaking down,
When no one's there to save you,
No you don't know what it's like,
Welcome to my life

You'll never see the tears
I cry when you are away.
You'll never know how
much I feel about you.
I'll never know if you feel
the same way about me.
I'll never know your
tender touch upon my skin.
I'll never be able to hear
your sweet voice on the phone.
I'll always hold a special place
in my heart for you.
Yet you'll never be able to hug
me when I need someone to
hold me.
You are always so sweet to me
and I love your gentle spirit.
Yet you'll still never know how
much seeing you gone makes
me ache inside.
How much all the words
you say to me were real.
How each emotion I wish were true.
I want you to be happy
but I know deep inside
I'll never be happy with you.

Don 't wait for the perfect moment...
take the moment & make it perfect

He puts that sparkle in my eyes Like no one else ever could

Someday you'll know the truth about your real personality,
& trust me, you'll be disappointed

Little an angel,
young at heart
Full of passion, full of life
You're my ever shining star
Thank you for being who you are

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there 4 her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend. One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" the girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying. "Just take care of my eyes"

please dont ever worry,because my lifes just a mistake.i really wasnt supposed to be here,so just go on with your day.and if you see me crying,ignore those pointless tears.i just tend to fall to pieces,because i know i dont belong here.my life is my only problem,and go on like it doesnt matter.because im going to fix whats wrong,and end all of this before tomorrow.my life has had no meaning,and my heart has never felt happy.ive just been cursed to continue living,even when its killing me.so dont try to stop me,when im standing on that edge.just let me let go and fall,because i have nothing to regret.

dont love me because im pretty,
and dont love me because im smart.
love me for my imperfections,
and my torn up heart.

dont hug me when im happy,
and dont kiss me on sunny days.
hold me close when the tears fall,
and kiss me in the rain.

dont pretend you dont know me,
when you are hanging with your friends.
i would prefer that you showed me off,
and do your best at making them jealous.

dont hide your affections,
and dont act so behaved.
i would love to hold your hand in public,
and just do crazy things.

and especially dont say you will love me,
and you will never leave my side.
i dont want to jinx this relationship,
and end up losing you in my life.

A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.

Some people believe in heaven and hell, but i believe in neither. Instead ive seen a greater place in a dream i once had. All souls exist here, there is no such thing as having sinned. No matter what you had done in your past life you are excepted none the less. Here in this place, you might mistake it to be a heaven, with its unearthly beauty. But, it is just another world, that others would never have thought of. Here in this world there are rolling fields of green, that seem to stretch on for miles. The sun is always shinning here and the sky sparkles like glittering crystal when the sun's rays impacts its surface. There are also flowers, that burst into bloom, filling this world with colors that remind you of fireworks on the fourth of july. The petals of these flowers shimmer and change with every color known to man. Blending and making hues of rainbows that could be held in the palm of your hand. There are also angels, or guides who have been there from the beginning of time. They show you choices that you must decide. Powerful decisions where if you had died too early you could go back and finish your life. But, you could also choose to stay in that world if you believe there was nothing that you missed out on life. It is a painful decision, because you have already gotten a taste of this world and it makes every inch of you sing with a glowing melody, a tune of harmonious beauty and it makes you forget anything that was bad in your life. You want more of this world, to drink it all and bathe in the warmth that fills your broken heart. To let it spill over and taint your very being. You are left with this choice and the angel gives you a glimpse of your life if you chose to go back. If it proves to be more promising and changes to something you have been wishing for a long time now, then go back. I would, if my life were to become of something more. I wouldnt want to miss out on something that is supposed to make my life better and help me finally be happy. I want to feel the happiness in this world first before i feel a happiness that is superficial. Plus, i would miss too much of the real world. Like the mixture of pink and blue when the sun rises on the horizon in the middle of winter. Or when the stars seem to have a silent song that they hum as they burn tiny holes in the night sky. I would miss this worlds natural beauty. I would want to live in this world long enough before i have to go live in a strange intoxicating world that would erase my mind of not just the bad times in life, but even the good times. I would like to create memories that i can cherish in my heart and die in a happy state when it comes to the time. I think this dream had given me a sudden realozation......i dont want to die. I want to live.

Smile,
One last time,
Just for me...

Stop acting like those californian pretty girls.
Stop acting like those Hollywood-created superstars.
And stop faking sadness.

People are not perfect except when they smile.

Sometimes I wish that I wasn't here

I stand
On top of the World
But no one sees me.

I drown
At the bottom of the ocean
But no one rescues me.

I sing
At the top of my lungs
But no one hears me.
I love
You with all my heart
But you don’t care.

SoI leave
This tiny planet behind
But no one misses me.

trying to see
what has become of me.
a frightened little girl
that just wanted love.
what went wrong?
when did I stop being strong?
happiness was just around the corner
why didn't I see it? why didn't I notice?
sorrow and pain consumed me, darkness came
and the light just went away.
a frightened young adult
trying to figure out what went wrong.s
earching for the light that just dissapeared
hoping that she will find it somewhere near.

The dots of blood on my finger tips
Connect with the dots of blood on my toes
I cut everywhere on my body and nobody knows
I go to school the next day and guess what they say?
”You just want attention don’t you?” and I say
”You don’t know the shit I’ve been through”
They laugh at me, poke and stare
I get up and walk away and whisper,
” I don’t care.” I sit down in this class room
And write this poem at 10 O’clock I want to go home
Because there’s no one home to give me shit
and here I get a demerit for what I did
”Chelsea! You need to go to the counselor’s office right now!”
”Why would you do that and how?”
I did it with a razor blade and a knife because
there is nothing to live for in life.
I just wish my dreams would come true
So I wouldn’t have to go through all I’ve been through
I cut and write to express myself.
But from my poems to the cuts
everyone thinks I need help.
So for my last poem,I turn this into a suicide note.
There’s nothing left for me
I have no hope. So for everyone who helped me through,
I thank you.And for everyone who cared.
I know you’re really scared.But don’t worry about me.
If I do this now, the happier I will be.
I love you all. Don’t feel guilty. It’s all on me.

Klinkt depri,
maar tis keimooi gezegd

I'm missing a piece of me. A critical part. I suppose I was born much like every other person. I'm just missing one crucial piece. They've forgotten a heart. Where my heart should be is a cavity with nothing inside except a small black stone. Cold and hard.

Unfeeling.

“Star light, Star Bright
First star I’ve seen tonight
I wish I may, I wish I might
Please grant my wish tonight.”
Every time I whisper those words,
As the day darkens to night,
And the stars come out like crystal birds.
I whisper my pleas to the celestial sky,
And I hope that some day those wishes would fly.
But always my luck can fall so short
Where every time I make my wish it won’t come true
And when I make this wish for you,
I feel like I should just say the opposite of my wish,
And if I say what my heart won’t think,
Then maybe I will never sink.
But I want to tell you this and not fail,
And maybe then I won’t derail.
So as I look at the stars this odd night,
I’ll find the first I see as my guiding light
So I may find you in my sight.

Ik ben Stift en jij niet, " wees jaloers ;-) "

A writer can be quiet anyone. You’ll never know unless you take time to know them. They are people who daydream and those dreams turn into ideas. They have been through phases in their life. Wanting to die, going emo, being sad, holding secrets, wanting to be thin, being the somebody everyone loves and so much more. Those phases lead to knowing every emotion in your body and just the way it works. All the feelings come on paper and spread the word. You’re too shy to speak your feelings or its too confused. All you do is go on and on writing page after page. It never ends as a child you learn but it does become useless, right? Your not really going to be a famous writer one day, it’s just a thing you do these days. However, why waste so much time writing? Just the fact of becoming another author is really a waste of time. Another poet, storyteller, whatever it is called. Its just more writing in this world than we already have. We could be out helping the world and saving everything. For it’s just a book, that will sit on a shelf, be read one day, be good or bad, be put back, and nothing will ever come out of it. So why waste your childhood writing when you got better things to do?

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"If I were Kira, you'd be dead."

-death note

'cause he writes your destiny.

"The Future Has Been Cast"

Where were you
The day the world stood still?
When everything went wrong
The day I couldn't get my fill
Of pain and despair
My mind is out of control
Everyone is just a puppet
And I'm just living my role
No one can truly help me
The future has already been cast
From the moment I was born
To when my heart beats its last

Where is the frog I can kiss
Where is the prince who should come
Where is anything I live for
Where is the reason why

Why should I live on and on
When I know it’s reasonless
Why should I love on and on
When I know it’s unhopeful
Why should I learn on and on

When I know that the earth will go down

De Beste mensen nemen ze altijd weg...

Dream, the wanting for love to exist.
Nightmare, the reality of how hard love is.

This couldn’t be heaven, could it?
There was too much pain for that.

Mirror, Mirror,lie to me
and show me what
I want to see,
a world untouched,
un-harmed by love,
a world not cursed,
that soars above,
a world of warmth,
not cold as ice,
a world where hearts break once,
not twice.

Mirror, Mirror,lie to me
and show me what
I wish to see,a moonlit night,
not pouring rain,
tears cried for joy,not cried for pain,
a peaceful life,a brand-new slate,
a world where love
can't turn to hate.

Mirror, Mirror,lie to me
and show me what
I hope to see,a world where pain
cannot occur,
where tears don't make
my vision blur,where happiness
can't drag me down,and love won't try
to make me drown.

Mirror, Mirror,lie to meand show me what
I pray to see,
a place where Iwon't need to feel,
where time and life
are not so real,
a place where I
don't need to think,where into death
I'll never sink.

Mirror, Mirror,lie to me
and show me what
I know can't be,
a world where death
is not a choice,
a place where I
can't hear his voice,
a world where cuts
don't bleed or scar,
where I can watch
life from afar,a world where I
can hide away,to die again
another day.

Now Mirror, Mirror,lie to me
and show me what
I need to see
reflect a world
unlike my own
where what is real
is never known.

'Cause I want you back,
In my life.

There has always been something about eyes to me. People ask me what the first thing I notice about others is, and I always answer eyes. Well, that is after height, weight, hair… But it's hard not to notice those things, you see.Blue eyes make me feel free. I want to dive into ocean eyes and swim some places far far away, leaving all other thoughts are worries behind. I can feel the oceans waves rushing over my body, molding with my skin, seeping in through my pores and dripping into my veins. I feel that it I can swim deep enough, maybe, just maybe, I can glimpse your soul.Green eyes have always made me feel alive. Piercing, you catch me by surprise. Green eyes make me want to go skydiving, free fall in a world where everything is going so fast, and maybe accelerate it enough to forget everything else. Green eyes reach down into me and pull out words I didn't even know I had until there they are, spread out all over the pavement.Hazel eyes remind me of my old queen sized bed. I want to bundle up and lie there forever, thinking and feeling safe. I want to know warmth again, want to understand the words running through my head on a never ending filmstrip I can't seem to make sense of anymore. Maybe put on a few records and listen to a forgotten time while imagining another world. Hazel eyes grip my soul and force me to question what is right, what is wrong, and everything else that doesn’t fit into those categories, like so many don’t anymore.But my favorite color eyes by far are dark brown. When I look into dark brown eyes, I feel a rush of emotion. It's a clouded wall of your past, of memories, of regret. But it is also a beauty, beyond comprehension. Dark brown eyes make me feel like I can see into your soul, stealing me away into another world where my existence is mirrored and I want to be a part with those eyes, with what lies behind them.It is with eyes that we see the world. It is with eyes that we first fall in love, that sparks that sensation in your stomach that feels like the butterflies are playing jump rope with your intestines. It is eyes of strangers that meet for a fleeting second before parting, leaving you with a feeling of hope... and loss. It is eyes that read each other before closing where for that longed moment where lips meet and share a silent dance. It is eyes that hold tears waiting to be shed after a broken heart, or a death of a loved one. The eyes that smile even when your lips don't. Even in an imagined flicker of light in eyes, emotion is opened up and laid down. I want to lie down with your eyes, reach in so delicately and pull out your heart and maybe you can look into my eyes and we can dance. Sing a song. Maybe you can look at me, for the first time, and see my eyes, see what I see in yours, feel me, feel me like I feel your soul. Hold me, hold me like I hold your heart.

Life's not like a box of chocolates,
or the ebbing of the sea.
Lifes a chance for all the chances
to be who you can be.
Take the hard times one by one
let them mold you further
Enjoy the good times as they come
to let your heart grow surer.
Surer of what? You may wonder
Well that really depends.
Are you young with out a care,
or nearing time of end?
Take the chances that you wish
Be the person you were meant to.
Don't start to ask just who that is,It's not up to me,
it's you.

I guess sad eyes never lie
No matter how hard they try
The pain is always there
Always in that mournful stare
Eyes so glassy and empty
So much so it envokes pity
What stole the soul of these beautiful spheres?
What could take away all their hopes and fears?
What cold heart could kill their light?
Turing from open and warm to cool and tight?
Poor little orbs of blue, brown, and green
How could the world be so cruel and mean?
I know behind that wall you've built you wish to cry
Because sad eyes can never lie

I have friends
They care for me.
But their to busy with their lives.

Kon ik maar tot je doordringen

-Soms als je opgeeft betekent het niet dat je zwak bent maar dat je sterk genoeg bent om het los te laten.

-we hebben allemaal onze dieptepunten, maar jij bent het diepste, zwartste punt dak ooit heb gehad

-Goede vrienden maken goede tijden beter & moeilijke tijden gemakkelijker

-Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today

I got soul, but I'm not a soldier

Watch it BURN!

It feels like I'm looking at life
Through a telescope because I'm so high
The ground never seemed so far away
Truth shall be told one day
I'll be under ground one day
I've got a men that'll putt roses on my grave
Roses on my grave

Don't forget me
Please forgive me
It's my redemption
Time for redemption
I'll see you on the other side

I almost told you that i loved you ö
Thank God I didn't cause it would've been a lie
I say the damnedest things, when you're on top of me.

I pack my case. I check my face.
I look a little bit older.
I look a little bit colder.
With one deep breath, and one big step,
I move a little bit closer.I move a little bit closer.
For reasons unknown.
I caught my stride.I flew and flied.
I know if destiny’s kind, I’ve got the rest of my mind.
But my heart, it don’t beat, it don’t beat the way it used to.
And my eyes, they don’t see you no more.

For reasons unknown- the killers

Walk away!
Go FIX YOURSELF

► Play. - The Best Memories
▌▌ Pause. - The Unforgettable Moments
■ Stop. - The HeartBreaks
◄◄ Rewind. - The Good Times

Scars remain

they are just like tattoos but with better stories

they remind us that the past is real

But the most painful scars are the invisible ones...

If the fish swam out of the ocean
and grew legs and they started walking
and the apes climbed down from the trees
and grew tall and they started talking
and the stars fell out of the sky
and my tears rolled into the ocean
now i'm looking for a reason why
you even set my world into motion'

cause if you're not really here
then the stars don't even matter
now i'm filled to the top with fear
but it's all just a bunch of matter
'cause if you're not really here
then i don't want to be either
i wanna be next to you

black and gold.

My heroes had the heart
To lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember is thinking,
I want to be like them
Ever since I was little,
Ever since I was little it looked like fun
And it's no coincidence I've come
And I can die when I'm done
Maybe I'm crazy

Probably.

and I know
it takes time
don't leave me behind
and I've been to places and seen many faces
but nothing that could ease my mind

don't leave me behind
ease my mind

Ohh, can't anybody see
We've got a war to fight
Never found our way
Regardless of what they say

How can it feel, this wrong
From this moment
How can it feel, this wrong
Storm.. in the morning light
I feel
No more can I say
Frozen to myself

I got nobody on my side
And surely that ain't right
Regardless of what they say

To pretend no one can find
The fallacies of morning rose
Forbidden fruit, hidden eyes
Curtises that I despise in me
Take a ride, take a shot now

Covered by the blind belief
That fantasies of sinful screens
Bear the facts, assume the dye
End the vows no need to lie, enjoy

After time the bitter taste
Of innocence decent or race
Scattered seeds, buried lives
Mysteries of our disguise revolve
Circumstance will decide ....

Cause nobody loves me
Its true
Not like you do.

Who am I, what and why
Cause all I have left is my memories of yesterday
these sour times

So help me, save me, tell me that the end is near
Help me, save me, tell me that the end is near
I am done with you
You made my life completely miserable
You drove me to the edge, you've caused me all this pain
But I've always loved you 'cause you're oh so special
I'm broken and I'm alone and I cannot maintain

Somebody falls in love, somebody breaks a heart
We never fell in love we only fell apart
I'm getting lonely, I need somebody to hold me
I thought I'd never miss her
She cut me out o f her pictures
Take a look at the world around you
Can you see the desperation?
Can you see the life your living?Somebody tells the truth, somebody lives a lie
I can see right through, the story is in your eyes
I know what they're saying, there is no need for explaining
There will be nothing better than when I burn all your letters
We never fell in love we only fell apart
We only fell apart
So we pick up the pieces and put 'em together
We said this was gnoa last forever

Life will knock me down.

It feels bad to be alone
Crying by yourself, living in a broken home

I always thought I could trust you
But I guess that's not the case
All the years that I loved you
You were out there playing the games
You didn't think that I would find out
But it was written all over the place
Is it really what you want now?
Then get the fuck out of my face!

How could you deceive me?
I'm begging you to leave me

So go to hell!
I'm better off without you
All is well
I'd rather be alone
To have you, to hold youAnd never know you 'cause you sold me out
You're never gonna live this down
Never gonna live this down

How do you look in the mirror?
How do you stand the sight of your face?
If you made it any clearer
I could have seen right through the hate
And I'll never think about you
When I'm sleeping with all of your friends
And I'm hoping that you find out
'Cause love is the sweetest revenge

I always thought I could trust you...

I trust no one
My trust is gone

I'm thinking
I am starting to see
I have become everything I never wanted to be
I'm really getting sick of myself
Cause when I look into the mirror,
I see somebody else

Woke up and I feel like shit
I don't remember last night,
I'm getting sick of this I hit the bottle when I got off stage
And got piss drunk stupid and went in a rage
I think I mighta got into a fight
Because my knuckles were bloody and
I don't feel alright I hit the bottom and
I don't even care Some say I
'm going to hell but I'm already there

I wanna be free from this ball and chain
and Be free from this life of pain and
Be free from this ball and chain
I wanna be free from you

Cannot hide it
You’re not that easy to forget ...