zondag 23 december 2012

Don’t cry over the past, it’s gone. Don’t stress about the future, it hasn’t arrived. Live in the present and make it beautiful.
What I miss most about you is not the cute moments that we had. The flowers at my door, the proclamations of love. No, what I miss is those everyday moments. Me tucking my feet under your leg when they were cold, the quiet kisses we shared behind the lockers, and holding hands under the table. Yeah, thats what I miss.
The saddest thing in the world is when two people, who at one time knew everything about one another, act like strangers. 
You don’t know what you’ve put me through. But it’s okay; I’ve forgotten you. In some way, I hope it fucks with you to know I’m okay and I made it through
To let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or to ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't winning, isn't losing. It's not about pride. It's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. It's not giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss, and it's not defeat. To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome them and move on. Letting go is having the courage to accept, the strength to keep moving. Because letting go is growing up.
I need someone to prove to me that I'm worth it, really worth it to them. Maybe all I need is a person who can show me that everyone is not the same. Honestly, I thought you were that person but I was wrong. Is it too much to ask for someone to take a risk on me, to fight for me, to actually care enough to not let something go; the way I did for you? You never even thanked me. I acted the way I did because I cared. I didn't realize it then, but I do now. I don't do that for just anyone. So, call me crazy, but today.. today i realized that I can't keep waiting for you. I'm moving on, I can't stay in one place waiting. I can't be around you anymore. I'm not over it, I don't get over things fast, I never have, no matter how much I try and convince myself. I'll see you around sometime. I keep thinking maybe somehow, something will click and everything will go back to the way it was in the beginning. Maybe we could go back to that, but too much has been said and done. So, maybe you'll get one more chance from me, maybe you won't.
I’m not always as confident as I seem. There are many nights and many days when all I want is to be held. I love being held. Always. Sometimes I don’t want to talk about what is bothering me. Sometimes I just want a hug. Someone who will let me cry.
Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be.
Don't let this cold world take over your warm heart. 
Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy.

donderdag 20 december 2012

"You make me sick. Because I adore you so..."
Matthew Bellamy, I will follow you!

maandag 17 december 2012

Here I go out to sea again
The sunshine fills my hair
And dreams hang in the air
Gulls in the sky and in my blue eyes
You know it feels unfair
There's magic everywhere
Look at me standing
Here on my own again
Up straight in the sunshine

No need to run and hide
It's a wonderful, wonderful life
No need to laugh and cry
It's a wonderful, wonderful life

The sun's in your eyes
The heat is in your hair
They seem to hate you
Because you're there
And I need a friend, oh I need a friend
To make me happy
Not stand there on my own
Look at me standing
Here on my own again
Up straight in the sunshine

No need to run and hide
It's a wonderful, wonderful life
No need to laugh and cry
It's a wonderful, wonderful life

I need a friend, oh I need a friend
To make me happy, not so alone
Look at me here, here on my own again
Up straight in the sunshine


zaterdag 15 december 2012

Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first. Cause without sadness, there is no happiness; you would never learn to smile.
So it's not the end of the world. But I believe it's the end to a lot of things.
You were here with me and everything was perfect. You held me close and I felt safe, like none of the bad in life could hurt me. Your arms fit around me perfectly and my heart jumped everytime you kissed me. We layed there and everything else seemed unimportant as I looked into your eyes and you looked back into mine. You stroked my cheek and smiled kissing me softly before attacking my neck with kisses until I laughed. You told me I was your favorite and I said you were mine too, I meant that. 
I wish that people did not have to cry. 
Happiness is a scary thing. Because in the back of your head you know that the happier the moment, the sadder it can make you.
I wonder, will it ever be the same as it once was. Will I ever look at myself and be okay with what I see? Because I am tired of it, tired of looking in the mirror and seeing nothing but imperfections. Why do I want to be perfect anyways? I know nothing good comes from perfection and with those around me it is their imprefections that make them beautiful. I think I'm still scared, scared that who I am isn't enough. 
You know what the best feeling in the world is? Having a best friend, that one person who loves you &never judges you no matter what you matter how badly you fuck up. Someone who you have endless conversations with and can communicate by just using your eyes. That one person who just walks in your house, opens the fridge and grabs whatever they want out. Lastly it’s that person who knows so much about you that they could ruin your life in a second.  But you trust them with your life and you know that they will never ever do that no matter what.
I'm scared of the future. I'm scared of growing up and failing at my life. I'm scared of being old and alone. I'm scared I'm never going to find someone who actually loves me.
Math doesn't teach us how to love a friend or forgive an enemy or pick ourselves up when we're upset, but it does teach us that every problem has a solution.
Well, I know it's over but I still have feelings. I still get a prickly sensation that runs up my spine when I see you. You just try not to look at me, you try not to see the pain that is written all over my face. Instead, you laugh and have a good time. I don't know how, I can't read your face. I don't know what you're feeling and honestly that bothers me more than anything, but I keep going and for some reason you won't let me fall out of love with you. It scares me because I don't want to be in love with you, but I guess I am. I am very much so in love with you. One of those that you can't fall out of love. It's pretty lame, I know. I just want to know what you do behind my back, when I don't see you. You're probably with her, you forgot about me already - but I guess that okay, I'm better off without you.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
The best is yet to come
Stupid me for thinking you were different, but what was I thinking, no one ever is. It was just something about you that made me have hope that you wouldn't leave me, maybe it's the fact that we talked about people, the people we hated for leaving our lives. But look at you now, making me hate you more and more every day. You're just like every other one of them, walking away like I never meant anything to you. And maybe it's because you're too weak but I know what you've been through, you're probably the strongest person I know. Maybe it's because you thought you didn't need me anymore, but now you're falling apart. Face it, we both know you do. Maybe it's because you thought I didn't care, but remember I gave a fuck when no one else did, it's clear I cared too much. Or maybe it's because I don't know why, seeing how I wouldn't even know if you were alive anymore, because you've decided to leave me, leave me here miserable and trying to figure out why I hate the person I used to love the most. Well wherever you are, whatever you're doing, I just hope you're alright and living the life you were suppose to live with me.
So you failed, you want to be really great? Have the courage to fail big and stick around. Make them wonder why you're still smiling.
Don't worry about me, 
you should be worrying about yourself,
because as far as i can see, you’re still an asshole..
but If you loved me, why did you leave me.
Take my body, take my body.
All I want is, all I need is to find somebody.
Tired of putting so much effort in people, 
who don't even give a fuck about you

donderdag 13 december 2012

Fear
And panic in the air 
I want to be free,
From desolation and despair
And I feel
Like everything I saw
Is being swept away
When I refuse to let you go

I can't get it right

Get it right
Since I met you

Loneliness be over

When will loneliness be over?

Life

Will flash before my eyes
So scattered and lost
I want to touch the other side
And no one
Thinks they are to blame
Why can't we see
That when we bleed we bleed the same?

-Musee

zondag 9 december 2012

This is how life works: you spend forever acting like you don’t care that you’re alone and then someone comes along and fills the little void you’ve been neglecting for so long. Things are great and you think ‘wow, I’m happy for once’. Then, as soon as you get used to having them around, they leave. You’re alone again. Even more so than before, you tell yourself that you’ll never meet someone that’s going to take their place. But you will, and they do, and then the process repeats itself, over and over and over and over again.
You know, it's crazy how wrong you can be about a person
Your whole life is about to change in a way that it will never be the same again. You're opening a new chapter, and you have to give a proper good-bye to the old one. You don't want to miss these moments, even the sad ones, because you'll never get them back again
Wanting him is hard to forget, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet
Sometimes you got to realize who has always been there for you because those are the people you need to keep in your life. I guarantee you should never let them go
No relationship is perfect, ever. There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater... The love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. And that's the key. It's like a big pie chart, and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece. Love can make up for a lot
Mijn leven heeft echt geen zin meer nu, zucht
want gij waart mijn leven :-(

donderdag 6 december 2012

The only thing harder than walking away, is not looking back
This is what true friendship is about. Always wanting the best for someone, even if that doesn't include you.
I'm the type of girl to let you walk away. I'm not going to fight for you, or tell you all the reasons you should stay. I won't cry; I'm just going to pick myself back up, wipe my scraped knees from where I fell, and skip through life again. Sure, I'd love for you to stay, but I will do just fine without you.
It's just right now, when you're really gone, and I feel my eyes filled with tears, that I know it's not true

zondag 2 december 2012


Be the change you want to see in the world


Every situation is an opportunity.
See the ways to make the most of it.
Those who advice you not to trust other people,
are the onse not to be trusted
Worry less.
Live this day as if it were your last.
The past is over and gone.
The future is not guaranteed.
Anyone who has never made a mistake,
has never tried anything new
Don't let the fear of falling keep you from flying.
Only the good die young,
So that makes me young and bad.
From this point on,
I'm going to treat people exactly how they treat me.
Some should me glad.
Some should be scared